Footprints.....

Well I've put it off long enough....I've been meaning to update my blog but I just haven't had the energy....spiritual or physical!

Let me recap the last two weeks....Vocal Conferences, Meetings with work, Future Service Seminars, leading the night meeting, planning the holiday to USA (another blog for another time) Songster rehearsals, weekends away with friends, cleaning the house, doing the washing and of course the assignments...they never go away!!

And also trying to catch up with sleep....Life is never boring!

But the "physical lack of energy" is fine....a good dose of berrocca will fix that...I can deal with that, but the "spiritual energy loss" is causing me some grief.

Why am I all of a sudden feeling like I'm making the wrong choices in life? Why am I starting to feel a sense of loss for the life that I currently am living and know that I have willingly offered to change? Why do I suddenly feel so alone in my life and friends are no longer around?

What's changed in my life to make me feel like this? Maybe its the weather?!?!?!?

I love the autumn time moving into winter...especially the frosty mornings that turn into the beautiful sunny days.

I'm always amazed when driving through the thickest of fog....you eventually get to a higher ground that is clear and bright.

But at the moment I'm feeling like the fog is heavy, but I know that I will rise above it...the fog will clear and I will be able to clearly see the road ahead of me.....But for now...it doesn't seem to want to go.....but I know God is walking with me and the devil is having a "field" day.

I knew when Paul and I made this decision to enter into officership that life would be challenging this year...and all the days cannot be "bright and sunny"....

I know this fog will lift....I can't begin to imagine how life would be if God wasn't with me...walking through that cold thick fog with no future path.....

I need God to walk with me at this time.....I feel so weak and insecure, when I'm not in constant contact with him...through prayer and his word.

I love the footprints poem....I feel like I'm having my own "footprints" experience now....Michelle Kay wrote a beautiful song called "Footprints in the Sand"...I'm going to leave them with you...already just reading through these words...Gods love for me is so evident....I hope they mean something to you also...have a great weekend....love Robyn

Footprints in the sand beside me

Is more than a dream, its my reality

Holding my hand, you guide me

Encompassed in your plan.

Loving Father thank you

Loving Father stay

Make your footprints in the sand beside me

Leading me Your way.

Footprints in the sand beside me

Companion and friend, Your mercy never ends

Lovingly bestow Your grace so free

Forgiveness overflows.

In you my needs supplied

On spirit wings I rise

Footprints in the sand behind me

I'm never alone through long and winding roads

And when times are bad You carry me

I'm held beneath my load

Loving Father thank you

Loving Father stay

Make your footprints in the sand beside me

Lead me in Your ways

AMEN!